Thursday, January 26, 2017

Things Unspoken

Held back, choked back, retracted out of fear, self-doubt, uncertainty...
Have you ever wondered about the things that were left unspoken?
Precious jewels--wrapped up yet untouched, like discarded gifts
The missed beauty in opportunities
The deep desires of your heart--stored, locked away--unchecked and disengaged for fear of rejection
Necessary apologies choked back on pride
Compliments withdrawn in the uncertainty of the reaction
Restoring words of encouragement held back on principle of "overstepping boundaries" or "it's not my place"
Gentle, but true guidance of misdirection or misdemeanor swallowed up in self-righteousness  wrapped up as "accommodating" or "people pleasing"
Praise reports, prayer, God's very name hidden in paralysis of sounding self-righteous or "holier than thou"
or further--being rejected by the world for glorifying God
A quiet squeeze of the hand, soft smile, or warm hug shut away in a box labeled "personal comfort zone", afraid of crossing the line.
Confessions locked up in paralyzing fear of judgment, repercussions, humiliation, disgrace
Stories of triumph stifled from self-doubt or the small, persistent voice of "I'm still not good enough"
Stories of despair covered in masks to hide shame; afraid the vulnerability will truly break me
But who is missing out on love by not sharing?
Who is voicelessly, silently crying out for help that I am overlooking?
Seeking the love that I claim overflows from the Lord
...yet I still remain silent
God has given me a voice...
May I use it to speak life, lift up, encourage, and truly love
May I use it to speak on behalf of someone who doesn't have a voice
May I use it to push past fear and live in freedom
May I use it for His glory.

Wednesday, November 2, 2016


When did the word different become defined as “better” or “worse”?
And why do those differences so commonly overshadow similarities?
I am not saying we are all the same
…in fact I know that is not true and it is exactly what I love about humanity.
What I am saying is—that at our core—in the foundational sense of who we are,
We are human.
We are life.
We are the experiences that shape us.
We are the motives that fuel us.
We are the emotions that mold us and color our interactions.
Those experiences and motives will vary…
In volume, intensity, morals, interpretation.
The emotions; however…
Despite what brings them on…are felt by all.
The smallest words or actions can either bring strife or glory.
Can either build up or tear down.
May we build each other up,
Praising our differences as unique ways to fit together in this world.
Are puzzle pieces the same in shape and color?
Yet, they come together to display a full picture,
To tell a story.
May we do the same with each other.
Honoring, respecting, and appreciating differences.
Encouraging each other to be our piece of the puzzle,
So we can display the full picture.
We each play an integral part.
Let’s allow each other to do that.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Be Somebody, Be You

Day by day
is so easily said
But is it so easily lived?
Marked by failure, heartache, loss, and the overwhelming pressure to be somebody
How is that defined?
Better question: who defines it?
Because if being "somebody" is defined by the world then good luck trying to find it.
The world spits out quick fixes, new trends, and fads
Buy into it only to be spit back out when the "new" has become a "has...been"
Been there, done that
You can't win
If you're trying to fit in
Because we are not called to blend in,
Camouflaged in deception,
We are called to stand out,
To be unashamedly who we are in a world of doubt.

Beauty in Everything

May we see the beauty in everything.
In the triumphs; through the trials.
Because when our eyes are open,
We are able to see the beauty in everything.
May we be humble through our triumphs and take comfort in our trials--realizing immense growth can happen when we are tested.
There is simple beauty in tears...
Whether stemming from happiness, sadness, regret, sorrow, frustration...
It reminds us we are human.
We are alive.
We are growing.
We are learning.
We are both incredibly vulnerable & incredibly strong.
And that, in itself, is beautiful.

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Living Purposefully

I don't want to live in fear.
I do, however, want to live purposefully.
Fear drives uncertainty, hesitancy, doubt, timidness
Purpose drives assurance, commitment, trust, boldness
We are not called to a spirit of fear and timidity but of power, love, and sound mind [2 Timothy 1:7]
In defining fear it states, "to feel anxiety or apprehension on behalf of" [someone or something]
A word that comes to mind in reading this definition is debilitating, which speaks of weakness--fear weakens your whole outlook and temperament.
In defining purpose it states, "having or showing determination or resolve; having a useful purpose; intentional"
Let's touch on words that correlate with this definition: strengthen, refresh, revitalize, stimulate, enliven, energize, rejuvenate.
Living with purpose encourages your spirit in times of distress and challenge, which will inevitably arise--
It provides durability and endurance.
Living in fear depletes your resolve before you ever even face a challenge.
With fear you are starting out below ground, grappling and fighting your way up through adversity.
With purpose you are standing above ground with a larger perspective--giving you the ability to conceptualize and prioritize.
God is bigger than our fears.
God provides purpose.

Sunday, May 1, 2016


I love looking back on things I have written and remembering the time in life in which I wrote them.  The following were written when I was leaving a job I loved and felt I thrived in.  The circumstances that lead to this were less than ideal but I love looking back and seeing how the Lord carried me through with perspective, grace, and love.  God knew I needed to be home.  He graciously used a tough situation to bring me back closer to family.  For that--and the lessons I have learned during that time--I am forever grateful.

I may not be the smartest person but I will never stop learning
I may not be the funniest person but I will always find a reason to laugh
I may not be the strongest person but I will never give up
I may not be the most beautiful person but I will choose to see beauty in every circumstance and person


Some of my biggest life lessons have been learned when I felt I have been or have truly been wronged by someone.  Giving it over to the Lord to either humble me or redeem the situation for my benefit.  You will reap what you sow, and so will they. (Galatians 6:7) Trust and let Him handle it.

"Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows." 
- Galatians 6:7


Standing on the Lord's foundation means when someone speaks ill of you, seeks to demoralize you or put you down--you don't have to utter a sound, defend yourself, or get caught up in the run around.  Because you trust the Lord to shine your true character--He handles the put back, the rebound.  What is lost on the world, in Him will always be found.  Our job is to turn the other cheek--overcome evil with good--so love can abound.

"Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, 'Vengeance is Mine, I will repay', says the Lord.  Therefore 'If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him a drink; For in doing so you will heap coals of fire on his head.'  Do not be overcome evil but overcome evil with good." - Romans 12:19-21


True growth may be painful; but worth it.

Friday, October 2, 2015

Beauty in the Waiting

There is beauty in the waiting.
Trust and allow the Lord to work on your heart.
God has a plan for you--He gave you, specifically you, unique talents and qualities to be used for His glory.
You are not used by God in spite of your singleness.
He does not see being single as a hindrance so why do we?
God doesn't look at you as incomplete without someone else.
You are; however, incomplete without Him.
With or without a partner God loves you.
Love yourself, when you are by yourself.
He won't leave your desire unchecked.
Trust in God's timing and understand that all other relationships should be built on the foundation of One.